生きることに向き合うたびに
Every time I face living
真下が手招いた
the drop below beckons to me
きっと本当の不幸も
surely I've never even tasted
味わっちゃいないのに
real misfortune
あまつさえ教養のないこの僕に
and yet, to this unlettered me
幸せを説くのは やめてよ
stop preaching happiness, please
やり過ごすようにただ眺め
merely watching, as if to let it pass
日々を連ねている
stringing the days together
5段階評価 何点でしょうか
on a five-point scale, how many points would I get?
鏡の僕も愛してくれますか
will you love the me in the mirror too?
今日も昨日と似たゴミの日なのに
today's another garbage day, just like yesterday
事切れるように溢れた
yet it overflows, as if expiring
この病に名前をつけて
give this illness a name
はらわたを泳ぐ化け物を診て
examine the monster swimming in my guts
この痛みに名前をつけて
give this pain a name
傷の無い虚構に終わりを処方して
prescribe an end to this unblemished fiction
偏りのない正しさより
rather than flawless righteousness
嘘のない自分でいたい
I want to be a self without lies
そっと息を吐いてはまた呑んで
softly breathing out, then swallowing it back
矛盾に沼ってく
sinking deeper into contradiction
他意の無い言葉の淵を磔に
crucifying the abyss of innocent words
黒ずんだ両目に
in my two eyes grown dark
どれだけ明日を蔑ろにすれば
how much must I spurn tomorrow
前を向けますか
before I can look ahead?
生まれた代償が
the price of being born
呼吸を止め彷徨う感情が
feelings that hold their breath and wander
色を落として伝う
losing color as they trail down
この病に名前をつけて
give this illness a name
能書きに理解を預けて
entrusting understanding to fine speeches
この命に名前をつけて
give this life a name
夜明けの無い価値に答えを処方して
prescribe an answer to this dawnless worth
お腹を大きくした猫に
to the cat whose belly swelled
寒すぎる季節の真ん中
in the dead of a season too cold
理性と引き換えた
a life traded for reason
命を宿す無防備の連鎖の
the defenseless chain of bearing life —
幸せに
to its happiness
ありがとうが言えない僕なんか
a wretch like me who can't say thank you
帰り道不条理で
on the way home — by this absurdity
消してしまってよ
just erase me away
この病いに名前をつけて
give this illness a name
明日も過去も忘れさせて
make me forget tomorrow and the past alike
滴る惨めも枯れ果てて
even the dripping misery dries up
まだ欲を掻き下を向いて歩く
still scraping for desire, I walk with my head down
僕の心から
from my heart
僕が居なくなる夢の続きへ
to the continuation of the dream where I'm gone
気が触れて白んだら
if I go mad and turn white
目をつむるだけ
I'll only close my eyes
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